Life's Beautiful

2010-05-07T09:25:00.000-07:00

haiz..lucky for two times is great but i doubt there will be a third time..
cheated death e first time was while driving n talking to ben..nearly had an accident wit a on coming bus..

second time was JUST NOW..a bmw nearly run me over..his side mirror hit my hip..imagine how close tat was??bloody shit..its red light for u deep shit..

how long more can i live??im just wondering..one by one u ppl are leaving me..i might go soon too..even my dad may leave me soon..hope he can stay on longer then me bah..

ans to y am i not smiling..: hmm..e reason to y i cn smile before was for someone..tat i loved..
well..i lost her n so how cn i smile??reasonable??so stop asking me stupid stuffs..i no my temper ain't tat gd now..so get lost from me kies??before u guys get hurt..i dun wanna hurt anyone..

(i still love u..n im nt gonna giv up waiting for u to be back in my arms)

2010-04-23T17:46:00.000-07:00

song for u.. my fav. song..guess u didnt noe..although im e hard listener..bt im soft inside..

Breathe Easy by James Blunt

Cruel to the eye

I see the way he makes you smile

Cruel to the eye

Watching him hold what used to be mine

Why did I lie?

What did I walk away to find?

Ooh why?

I......... can't breathe easy

I can't sleep at night

Till you're by my side

I........can't breathe easy

I can't dream another dream

Without you lying next to me

There's no air

Curse me inside

For every word that caused you to cry

Curse me inside

I won't forget, no I won't baby I

Don't know why (Don't know why)

I left the one I was looking to find

Ooh why?

WHY?!

I.........can't breathe easy

I can't sleep at night

Till you're by my side

No I........can't breathe easy (Breathe easy)

I can't dream another dream

Without you lying next to me

There's no air

Out of my mind

Nothing makes sense anymore

I want you back in my life

That's all I'm breathing for

Ooh......................

I can't sleep at night

Till you're by my side(By my side..yeah)

I........can't breathe easy(nono~)

I can't dream another dream

Without you lying next to me

There's no air

There's no air..

2010-04-23T17:28:00.000-07:00

hiaz..foreva thing need to be at full blast at me??
2weeks ago patric commited suicide..
ytd afternoon, chris commited suicide..
soon after..clarine baby break up with me..

i never had such a big combo set right at me..
know how pain it is??two 10yrs frend..1gf
jus tis mth itself..power pac la..

jus reached hm..was so damn emo..
went to drink near jurong..didnt went totally drunk..
haiz..seriously wad i said in e previous post really affect tis post..

let me list closest ppl tat i lost..
1. emily
2. granddad
3. nigel
4. patric
5. chris
6. aaron
7. loyd
8. alex
9. ray
and my love
clarine..

shiok ar..leaving me quite fun ar..
how bout u all return bck n i be one who leave..without saying gd bye
i really hate e feeling..
i love all of ur..especially clarine..
but haiz..nvr..maybe i shouldnt exist at all..
doesnt make any diff..

wadeva it takes n no matter how long..i'll wait..
i dun care wad u say..
n yes im super stubborn..

I LOVE U..arghhhhh~~
haiz..

2010-04-20T09:46:00.000-07:00

i do miss e past of wadeva..fun joy n laughter..
aft sec3 onwards, n aft graduation..
everything has changed alot for me..

sadness,stress,madness,mistrust,fault,confusion,time,studies,blame,empty promises n alot more..

ppl says lifes a beautiful thing..but it jus crashed down with this conclusion..life sucks alot..n i really mean it..it sucks to e core..

sry guys..im totally nt in e right mood right now..may break down anytime..maybe to my past self..

i love u baby
:)

2010-01-24T06:41:00.001-08:00

im soo soo sry guys..lol..
past few days was kinda busy wit projects n stuffs..
n too tired to do stuffs..haha..

hmm..tanning is bck in business..hehe..
im 'malay' for nw..lol..
hmm..went out wit baby tdy..
n omg..tis morning she was waiting for me under my blk..haha..
so touched..e way i woke up was diff. too..lol..

i love tdy..
i love baby too..
=]

2010-01-08T22:59:00.000-08:00

past few days full of suprises...haha..
hmm..last nite was invited for a gathering by edwin(ex-huayian)
located at costa sands resort sentosa..
hmm..gt to noe new tings..n learnt how to ply majong

drinkin was e best part..tink i drank quite alot..
bt nt high or wad..idk y..
had joy laughter n fun..so it wasnt so bad after all..
haha..at least you shan was there..so i had someone to talk to..hehe=]

well idk of anyting to type anymre..so
byebye..=]=]
LOL

2010-01-04T06:52:00.000-08:00

i've been talking rubbish e whole of tdy...
sort of lik asking questions n answering it to myself..
lol..gt curfew...omg...my first curfew ever..feels so weird la..
haiz...n is at 10pm...so early lor..wtf...
bt still ok la...cn rest mre...control abit..

=]

idk wad to type alrdy..partly cus i'll most likly type rubbish??
lol..haha

2009-12-25T07:20:00.000-08:00

24dec x'mas eve

hmm..seriously e planner suck..fcking cb..JASMIN..nnb
ppl tell her all meet at 6pm..
say nonono Must meet at 5pm
at e end i reach jus nice at 5pm..
n she still at hm goin frend hse then come..wtf man
hong gan..nvm..wind n peiling tell me chill...
ok i chill le..
she come give me 1 fcking face..sibei dulan leh..
nvm..go HKcafe to eat..
step noe how to speak english v gd..
i use my ass talk i tink also btr ten her la..

orchard alrdy so crowded walk ard also sure sian..
so i 2days ago say aft eat go CQ slack..she say ya confirm ok de..
ten she e fcking only 1 wanna stay at orchard ten accuse me nvr tink bout her..
wtf..lucky gt wind there lor..if not her face gone..
nvm..at lease get to watch avatar..so cool man..wanna watch again..
anyway still fcked up day man...cus of a PERSON..

tdy 25dec..happy x'mas day everyone=]=]
lip woke me up frm my v gd n swt dream..haiz..
went to ply bball wit junhao, lip, jordan n one mre guy duno hw to spell his name..
my bball cmi..i tink a p4 student cn win me la..wtf
ate at makan shiok n blablabla
bout 8+ mre pk come dwn liao..
all our talking all sotsot de la..
cus ytd all drunk n still hanging over..
aft tat gt tj..haiz..ten i machiam lik mad cow..
baby im sry..=[
bt i guai liao..only scold ppl nia..
i admit i nearly wack a guy bt nvr..hehe=]

tired liao..nites..tata

2009-12-23T00:56:00.000-08:00

tdy is so damn boring...haizz...

baby went oversea so early in e moring la..=[
i so wanna go canada nw..argh..
ltr i'll check e flight..hehe..
as for tml idk wad to do..
3 groups of ppl asked me out..
1. go sentosa ten continue all e way at vivo...
2. go vivo at bout 9+ ten drink at boat quay
3. watch avatar ten continue chipmunks n then duno wad show at ps or cathay..

wtf..all lik nt fun la..
hmm..idk if i let alot of peeps dwn or u guys dwn..
esp. baby, lihui jie, isable jie n alot mre i guess..
cus i drink n smoked alot last week due to my bdae period..
n tis week is gonna be another week..
haiz..

im sry peeps..
bt i did promise baby nt to get drunk of drink too much..
kies tat bout it..
time to rot at hm for a boring day..

2009-12-15T08:24:00.000-08:00

okies...i'll try my best..

my rotten blog must be lively again..haha

mon went sentosa wit wind n 2 other frends..

was so worth it la..

btr then goin there wit luke n e rest..

shit im so mean..haha..bt its e truth..=.=

forgot to take pics of wind=.=..

bt he was btr looking then his fb or tagged pics lor..haha>.<

bt here are some pics..wait till i find where are the other missing pics

by then i'll post it also..

stupid ball tat made my wrist acheing..

die u stupid ball!!!!! im so unfit!!!!grrrr...

hehe...became fit in e next min..=.= e tann nice rite??=]

looks fat though!!

hmm..nth much bout tdy...

all i cn say is..

mon sux rite aft i knew someting..

n noe wad?

i gt blamed for knowing wad is happening or rather for nth..

well wad to say?? tat person is a dirt bag...nice name huh?!

2009-10-26T09:15:00.000-07:00

im sry peeps..

past few days were great..
fri i did ton wit someone..n chatted e whole nite
didnt care bout a ting n stuffs...

n bout ytd nite..
hmm...tried to get myself drunk bt..seriously its hard n i didnt manage to be drunk
was freaking confused bout tings n wadeva is happening...

tdy morning was fcking piss of wit SOMEONE..THANKS FOR MAKING MY DAY!!!!!
i came at bout 11 n admit im late...n yet he say wad talking to me n i walk away
wad fck rite..cb..nvm..telling me he will mark me absent..knn..cn mark late bt no...
he didnt noe wad happened n yet wanna argue wit me..
so i walk out la..n best bro n sis find me..

well..lifes gt to go on rite..
jus see my luck upon some stuffs..haha
might jus be e happiest guy in e world bt at e same time being e most jealous guy in e world rite?
haha..
well..i jus hav to go thru e ups n dwns of life...
jus tat SOME PEOPLE gt to make it worst...

2009-10-05T11:56:00.000-07:00

hey im kinda bck tho..nt so into it cus of some reasons..=]

k where should i start?
hmm..here goes...>.<
e most recent tonning was wit luke..tat took place at my old hm twn(pasir ris)lol
then,we were kinda hungry so luke ordered nasi goreng kampong..where i ordered nasi goreng cina..his is meant to be spicy...while mine is to be lik e chinese fried rice(bt it tasted btr)haha..
i was kinda dumb tho..my knee was having e old injury which was damn pain..n i offered to buy drink..ten i told luke tat wadeva i order jus drink..n he wanted to tell me wad drink he wanted...when i walked to e drink store..i went oshyt..wat to get for him...so i walked bck limping n ask wad drink u want?n i asked him all drinks cn bt nt green tea rite...=.=..so i walked bck to buy coke for him..wtf...

ate half way n luke came up wit tis stupid idea...cus of his nasi goreng kampong, there were 2 whole chilli padi in it..n he said u eat 1 i eat 1..so we ate it..n both of us were burning till our face,eyes n ears were red..tears nearly rolled out tho..LOL...

wow...kinda long huh..
let come to tdy..

hmm..didnt wanna go out actually..cus luke n leonard was at bedok..so damn far n im lazy for e day..until luke told me to meet them at parklane to ply LAN since leonard wanted to..so i joined them..for e first time e 3 of us lost in campaign..cn u imagine?omg..nt happy..best part was leonard has gt 3bars of life n he woke e witch..=.=..luke n me were struggling to kill it..cool huh..lol..
aft tat went to slack at istana park..plyed song wit our phones..smoke..talk..
bored tho..bout 10.45 leonard gtg so all zhao..=[
wad a short day..haiz..

i'll try my best to update tis blog when im free..=]

2009-07-10T11:26:00.000-07:00

hey marv..im sry i didnt get to say gd bye nor a hug..
haiz..
im nt really sure if i could witstain any hurt or any mre pain..
i anyone else gone, i may lose my mind man..

dear im sry but its pain..
u shld uds..
i love u
im sry

2009-07-05T06:35:00.000-07:00

damn im bored..sadness is over running me..
haiz...
i wan a job..a gd pay..gd timing..
dear jy wit ur work bah..=]

i love u dear..
muarks

2009-06-29T04:59:00.000-07:00

sian sian sian..lol
tdy jus cut hair..haiz..
bt my hair nt long enough..=.=

aft tat jus nice dear came to my hse..
ten ben n pei e..
lol..plyed uno n chi chess..
wtf..my hse machiam lik chalet..
=.=
slp wit dear for awhile ten all went out tgt to suntec..
ate liao ten dear n pei e went to work..
sian..i miss my darling..=[
rk wit ben for awhile ten find job..
M1 job..i wan..com'on com'on..i wan u..lol..
if i got tat job shiok liao la..
lol..

kk..is e starting day of my lonelyness..
to be continued for e nxt 6 mths..=.=..haiz..=[sob..

i love u dear..=]
muarks..<3

2009-06-21T13:08:00.000-07:00

hey guys..i cant wait to save up lots n lots of money to buy e sunglass i want..
its so nice so style la..
let me show u..
>.<

let me intro u to e Oakley Radar Path=]=]
i cant wait to get my hands on it..

ytd went out wit dear..
eat at kfc n hmm..kinda weird upon wad i heard..
well nvm..who cares rite? well i do..
im gonna get YOU(whom said something) for tat..(who e hell u tink u are?)
aft eating went to rk..plyed..whoots..i love to ply wit tat boy..
fun la..i honour him k?so cheerful..well for e last round let him win..
if i win also no use..if nt i nd to change card liao..=.=..
soon aft walked to CQ wit dear..talked n bullied dear..hehe
dear i love u..

i love my darling..<33
muarks..=]=]

2009-06-19T00:08:00.001-07:00

sry peeps...
was damn lazy to blog..
n damn lazy to do anyting but to go out wit my baby..
haha..

hmm..our 3rd mth jus passed 2 days ago..
was enjoying every moment wit her..hehe..
i love u baby..

i'll post some photos other day..=]
cya guys soon

2009-06-08T11:10:00.000-07:00

sry dudes...
was totally very very lazy to blog..
was having emotional break dwn n throwing my temper to almost everyone..
i hav no patience again..wtf...
i dun wanna be lik tis de..bt haiz...

ok..i miss my frends..
i'll find u guys some day..
miss u guys lots..stay healthy n smile always..=]=]

love my babygal foreva<3
=]=]

2009-05-18T09:13:00.002-07:00

Im so sry my dear frends..
lol...i could nt get to use my com cus i dun even noe where is it..
i jus found my com so i will use it as long as possible b4 its gone again..
(i hope not)hehe!!

tdy tried to wake baby up but..she fell bck to slp..
well went to sch first..=[
plyed psp wit jin hui..
wah..i own him at moh(medal of honour)sia
lol..bt he was i great plyer too..=]nt bad nt bad..jyjy
ten went to canteen cus break time..
n baby still nt in sch yet..
ten i bluff baby tat im angry..
n she woke up..whoots..bt she cried..=[
IM SRY BABY..i wont do it again..=[=[
i love u..hehe

went to watch movie wit luke,pram,shayiful,fariz,lenard,maria,sabia n dear..
wtf..i dun wan to watch tat movie de..bt join in lor..=.=
aft tat went slack awhile n went to suntec wit dear..
hmm..saw yong long at suntec again..=.=..
ate kfc wit baby..
ten plyed uno..wow..baby so pro sia..
haha..

i love my baby gal forever only..
the one n only in my life ever since 170309..wakaka..=]

2009-05-04T08:55:00.000-07:00

wow..tdy wake up really late for sch...
dear even later..haha..
bt dear so poor ting..slp for awhile nia..
aft sch slack wit luke,fariz,alip,shaiful n mre..
haha..n baby slp until so sweet..>.<
plyed "german game" wit luke,fariz,yasin n prem..
lol..zzz..i gt bullied till very de very jialut..
wtf..my hand swallon..=.=..
bt when ply blackjack, all also bully each other..haha..
walked ard wit deardear at amk hub..
dear is always ever so cute la..=]
i love my baby gal forever<3

took bus88 to sch..on e bus i saw senior..
went to sch tgt while baby go hm change..
changed to dust coat n everyting
n went to workshop to do grinding at 6.30pm
it was e most boring moment in my life so far..lol
finished at bout 8.20pm?
bus-ed to amk to meet baby..
keep bully baby..haha
train-ed to city hall,walked to suntec
went to mac..n i went HIGH..
n baby bullied me=[..sobsob..
aft eating,at e bus stop
idk y my eyes gt tears lor..wtf
so weird..n baby say i cry=.=

i love my babygal always n only..=]
<33muarks

2009-05-02T22:35:00.001-07:00

Whoots finally n nearly done with my tis new blog
hahas..
=]