haiz..lucky for two times is great but i doubt there will be a third time..
cheated death e first time was while driving n talking to ben..nearly had an accident wit a on coming bus..
second time was JUST NOW..a bmw nearly run me over..his side mirror hit my hip..imagine how close tat was??bloody shit..its red light for u deep shit..
how long more can i live??im just wondering..one by one u ppl are leaving me..i might go soon too..even my dad may leave me soon..hope he can stay on longer then me bah..
ans to y am i not smiling..: hmm..e reason to y i cn smile before was for someone..tat i loved..
well..i lost her n so how cn i smile??reasonable??so stop asking me stupid stuffs..i no my temper ain't tat gd now..so get lost from me kies??before u guys get hurt..i dun wanna hurt anyone..
Living in a special lovely place..
Friday, April 23, 2010
5:46 PM
song for u.. my fav. song..guess u didnt noe..although im e hard listener..bt im soft inside..
Breathe Easy by James Blunt
Cruel to the eye
I see the way he makes you smile
Cruel to the eye
Watching him hold what used to be mine
Why did I lie?
What did I walk away to find?
Ooh why?
Ooh why?
I......... can't breathe easy
I can't sleep at night
Till you're by my side
I........can't breathe easy
I can't dream another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air
Curse me inside
For every word that caused you to cry
Curse me inside
I won't forget, no I won't baby I
Don't know why (Don't know why)
I left the one I was looking to find
Ooh why?
Ooh why?
WHY?!
I.........can't breathe easy
I can't sleep at night
Till you're by my side
No I........can't breathe easy (Breathe easy)
I can't dream another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air
Out of my mind
Nothing makes sense anymore
I want you back in my life
That's all I'm breathing for
Ooh......................
I can't sleep at night
Till you're by my side(By my side..yeah)
I........can't breathe easy(nono~)
I can't dream another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air
There's no air..
Living in a special lovely place..
5:28 PM
hiaz..foreva thing need to be at full blast at me??
2weeks ago patric commited suicide..
ytd afternoon, chris commited suicide..
soon after..clarine baby break up with me..
i never had such a big combo set right at me..
know how pain it is??two 10yrs frend..1gf
jus tis mth itself..power pac la..
jus reached hm..was so damn emo..
went to drink near jurong..didnt went totally drunk..
haiz..seriously wad i said in e previous post really affect tis post..
let me list closest ppl tat i lost..
1. emily
2. granddad
3. nigel
4. patric
5. chris
6. aaron
7. loyd
8. alex
9. ray
and my love
clarine..
shiok ar..leaving me quite fun ar..
how bout u all return bck n i be one who leave..without saying gd bye
i really hate e feeling..
i love all of ur..especially clarine..
but haiz..nvr..maybe i shouldnt exist at all..
doesnt make any diff..
wadeva it takes n no matter how long..i'll wait..
i dun care wad u say..
n yes im super stubborn..
I LOVE U..arghhhhh~~
haiz..
Living in a special lovely place..
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
9:46 AM
i do miss e past of wadeva..fun joy n laughter..
aft sec3 onwards, n aft graduation..
everything has changed alot for me..
sadness,stress,madness,mistrust,fault,confusion,time,studies,blame,empty promises n alot more..
ppl says lifes a beautiful thing..but it jus crashed down with this conclusion..life sucks alot..n i really mean it..it sucks to e core..
sry guys..im totally nt in e right mood right now..may break down anytime..maybe to my past self..
i love u baby
:)
Living in a special lovely place..
Sunday, January 24, 2010
6:41 AM
im soo soo sry guys..lol..
past few days was kinda busy wit projects n stuffs..
n too tired to do stuffs..haha..
hmm..tanning is bck in business..hehe..
im 'malay' for nw..lol..
hmm..went out wit baby tdy..
n omg..tis morning she was waiting for me under my blk..haha..
so touched..e way i woke up was diff. too..lol..
i love tdy..
i love baby too..
=]
Living in a special lovely place..
Friday, January 8, 2010
10:59 PM
past few days full of suprises...haha..
hmm..last nite was invited for a gathering by edwin(ex-huayian)
located at costa sands resort sentosa..
hmm..gt to noe new tings..n learnt how to ply majong
drinkin was e best part..tink i drank quite alot..
bt nt high or wad..idk y..
had joy laughter n fun..so it wasnt so bad after all..
haha..at least you shan was there..so i had someone to talk to..hehe=]
well idk of anyting to type anymre..so
byebye..=]=]
LOL
Living in a special lovely place..
Monday, January 4, 2010
6:52 AM
i've been talking rubbish e whole of tdy...
sort of lik asking questions n answering it to myself..
lol..gt curfew...omg...my first curfew ever..feels so weird la..
haiz...n is at 10pm...so early lor..wtf...
bt still ok la...cn rest mre...control abit..
=]
idk wad to type alrdy..partly cus i'll most likly type rubbish??
lol..haha
Living in a special lovely place..
